Saudades

The tenant next door has moved out of the house. Repairs are being done. Meanwhile our day to day life hasn’t changed much. I am not planning to pack anything until we know the house is in move in condition. Besides, the books are still in the same boxes I’ve put them in two three years ago in Canada, before moving from Ontario to Saskatchewan, then from Saskatchewan to Ontario, and then from Ontario all the way down here to Brazil.

What a whirlwind it has been.
The twins, though they don’t realize, have lived in 4 different places, soon to be 5. They are 39 months (3 years and 3 months) old. I was hoping (and praying) that our move here would be permanent, or at least semi-permanent (for a couple of years), but I haven’t had time to settle in this house and we are already asked to move to another. Sigh. Yes, it will be a better place, and yes, it’s only next door, but still, this and many other things make me feel that we are not meant to stay here. We are just passing by, once again.

I’ve been uprooted and grown back some roots many times in my life. However, experience in these matters does not make it any easier. I am often asked if I miss Canada. The long and cold winters? Ha! No, not that. What I miss the most (saudades) are the friends, the familiar faces, the people we have left behind.

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9 comentários sobre “Saudades

  1. Je te comprends tout à fait. Ayant vécu de cette façon, aujourd’hui je veux me *poser*, créer des racines, que mes enfants sachent/puissent avoir un port d’attache. Mr Man ne voyait pas ça comme ça, mais je lui ai clairement dit que le jour où je tombe enceinte, je me pose dans une maison et n’en ressors, si nécessaire, que dix ans plus tard.

  2. Are you moving again? Sorry, my brain is bad at deciphering hidden messages… Being always on the go isn’t easy but your boys will be amazing people, open-minded and easy-going 😉

  3. J’aime bien le nouveau design 🙂 Et je te comprends, pour le déménagement. J’ai une amie qui m’a demandé, aujourd’hui, où je m’imaginais être dans 5 ans et j’ai répondu “hopefully in my bed, sleeping!” parce que je suis épuisée par tous les déménagements de ma vie. C’est épuisant de se reconstruire une vie à chaque fois, et je t’admire d’avoir réussi à faire ça si souvent et avec une famille. Bon courage encore une fois, c’est peut-être la dernière fois en 10 ans, je croise les doigts pour toi 🙂

    • Ben non justement, ça sera pas la dernière fois. Je sens qu’on va repartir (de Rondônia, pas du Brésil) bien avant que 10 ans soient écoulés… Ça me soulage (pcq’on est vraiment loin de tout ici) et ça me fait extrêmement chier en même temps! 😕

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